From the JFC wall-walking soundtrack:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SYM-RJwSGQ8
What an indescribable trip. Missing it already and having trouble adjusting!
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Friday, August 1, 2014
T minus ... a little more than 24
Jedi Fight Club approaches ... And Michael is on rotation.
I just practiced for what will likely be the last time stateside until I return ... my fourth 5:30 a.m. class this week. I've been practicing daily, and even though I'm super anxious, I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I'll have to accept where I am and just be ok with that. I'm there to learn, afterall.
I still can't believe I'm going.
I just practiced for what will likely be the last time stateside until I return ... my fourth 5:30 a.m. class this week. I've been practicing daily, and even though I'm super anxious, I guess I'm as ready as I'll ever be. I'll have to accept where I am and just be ok with that. I'm there to learn, afterall.
I still can't believe I'm going.
Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Easiest way to update ...
A message I sent to my cousin today ... she lives across the pond.
I have been too frazzled to keep up with the details these days, so I'm sure you can piece things together from this communication, mostly.
Hiya, cousin. Thank you for the birthday wishes. I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that for some reason, I feel good today. Shouldn't be so noteworthy, eh? Well, I think it's because I'm 11 days through Ryder's first summer possession with his father AND because after 10 nights with his dad and away from our home, he was with me overnight last night for my birthday. Didn't know how much I needed that time with him. So I dropped him at his father's this morning before work ... only seven more sleeps until he's home again. And we leave in nine days for Florida. Mom started her drive there today and will pick R and me up from the airport next week. We'll be there six sleeps! Also, I like the day-after the birthday better than the "approaching/impending doom," and I survived July 4 weekend - without Ryder and without Tim (he was in Kentucky for a week). Tim got back last night and surprised us at my house when mom, R and I got back from dinner and theater. And heck, maybe even virtual wishes on social media are having an effect. But whatever the reason, I'll take this over the dumps any day. Not even going to worry about if it will last at this point. Wrapping some things up at the office and off to yoga soon. That always helps, too. Anyway, wanted to send a note where I'm not b*tching for a change. Love ya and hope all is well!
I have been too frazzled to keep up with the details these days, so I'm sure you can piece things together from this communication, mostly.
Hiya, cousin. Thank you for the birthday wishes. I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that for some reason, I feel good today. Shouldn't be so noteworthy, eh? Well, I think it's because I'm 11 days through Ryder's first summer possession with his father AND because after 10 nights with his dad and away from our home, he was with me overnight last night for my birthday. Didn't know how much I needed that time with him. So I dropped him at his father's this morning before work ... only seven more sleeps until he's home again. And we leave in nine days for Florida. Mom started her drive there today and will pick R and me up from the airport next week. We'll be there six sleeps! Also, I like the day-after the birthday better than the "approaching/impending doom," and I survived July 4 weekend - without Ryder and without Tim (he was in Kentucky for a week). Tim got back last night and surprised us at my house when mom, R and I got back from dinner and theater. And heck, maybe even virtual wishes on social media are having an effect. But whatever the reason, I'll take this over the dumps any day. Not even going to worry about if it will last at this point. Wrapping some things up at the office and off to yoga soon. That always helps, too. Anyway, wanted to send a note where I'm not b*tching for a change. Love ya and hope all is well!
Friday, June 20, 2014
Week in summary: Challenge complete
OK, so Father's Day came and went and so did my Sunday depression/blues. And for that I'm grateful. Though I should be/possibly am PMS'ing ... so there's that.
I totally finished my 60-Day Challenge a week early, and I've not even posted about it here. I'm not feeling eloquent at all though. And even though I finished the challenge Wednesday, I still practiced last night and am planning on being in the hot room again in less than two hours.
I am such a "go big or go home" person, so "all or nothing," so type-A. I always go overboard. With everything. And I'm aware of it.
Anyway, for obvious reasons, I found this article entertaining: 9 Signs You're Addicted to Bikram Yoga.
Read it, and naturally you'll understand why I might have verbally said, "Yes, Yes, YES" when I discovered there's a studio in Naples. I thought I was going to be SOL next month when I'm in Florida. Relief.
And also, you might understand that I'm having a mini-heart attack realizing I have to pick up my kid and get to practice because it starts in just 70 minutes (yes, I was dicking around and IM'ing and FB'ing and whatnot while also working on this little update here).
M'kay, bye.
I totally finished my 60-Day Challenge a week early, and I've not even posted about it here. I'm not feeling eloquent at all though. And even though I finished the challenge Wednesday, I still practiced last night and am planning on being in the hot room again in less than two hours.
I am such a "go big or go home" person, so "all or nothing," so type-A. I always go overboard. With everything. And I'm aware of it.
Anyway, for obvious reasons, I found this article entertaining: 9 Signs You're Addicted to Bikram Yoga.
Read it, and naturally you'll understand why I might have verbally said, "Yes, Yes, YES" when I discovered there's a studio in Naples. I thought I was going to be SOL next month when I'm in Florida. Relief.
And also, you might understand that I'm having a mini-heart attack realizing I have to pick up my kid and get to practice because it starts in just 70 minutes (yes, I was dicking around and IM'ing and FB'ing and whatnot while also working on this little update here).
M'kay, bye.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Father's Day 2014
I woke up to find myself unexpectedly down and depressed this Father's Day. I really didn't expect it to have an affect on me, but live and learn.
I'm not depressed that I'm not seeing my father, or that I haven't since February. I'm sad because I have no desire to even phone him. I'm sad reflecting on how much he has let me down, and I'm sad because it hurts. It's no wonder I don't trust people at all.
This is also the third weekend in a row that my son has not been at home because his father has possession of him, and my body physically hurts because I miss him so much. I'm eager for him to return tomorrow, and I can't wait until next weekend when I get to enjoy some quality time with him ... before he heads to his father's for 18 straight days at the end of June and beginning of July. I wonder when this won't be so painful. Ever?
So anyway, I'm heading to the yoga studio to turn the pain up a notch today. Sometimes that's the only thing that gives me any relief.
I'm not depressed that I'm not seeing my father, or that I haven't since February. I'm sad because I have no desire to even phone him. I'm sad reflecting on how much he has let me down, and I'm sad because it hurts. It's no wonder I don't trust people at all.
This is also the third weekend in a row that my son has not been at home because his father has possession of him, and my body physically hurts because I miss him so much. I'm eager for him to return tomorrow, and I can't wait until next weekend when I get to enjoy some quality time with him ... before he heads to his father's for 18 straight days at the end of June and beginning of July. I wonder when this won't be so painful. Ever?
So anyway, I'm heading to the yoga studio to turn the pain up a notch today. Sometimes that's the only thing that gives me any relief.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
First Bikram 60-day challenge in 2014
When I started this current 60-day Bikram challenge: I was excited, pumped, all "I got this! Whoo-hoo, bring on the challenge!"
Two weeks into the challenge: "OMG, when is this going to be over? Seriously, why did I do this? Life is busy, and this takes time, and it's really hard. I'm fatigued and sore." Also, "This is my first challenge while working full-time = bonus points."
Practice No. 30, aka half-way into the challenge: "Whoo-hoo! I'm half-way there! So glad I'm in the middle of this ride. But wait, I'm only half-way there? Where exactly is 'there?' Oh yeah, 'there' is when the challenge is over, but practice will continue since I am training for August retreat in Mexico."
And I've realized that the bigger challenge is maintaining a consistent practice, as part of an improved lifestyle, for a lifetime.
Namaste.
Two weeks into the challenge: "OMG, when is this going to be over? Seriously, why did I do this? Life is busy, and this takes time, and it's really hard. I'm fatigued and sore." Also, "This is my first challenge while working full-time = bonus points."
Practice No. 30, aka half-way into the challenge: "Whoo-hoo! I'm half-way there! So glad I'm in the middle of this ride. But wait, I'm only half-way there? Where exactly is 'there?' Oh yeah, 'there' is when the challenge is over, but practice will continue since I am training for August retreat in Mexico."
And I've realized that the bigger challenge is maintaining a consistent practice, as part of an improved lifestyle, for a lifetime.
Namaste.
Monday, May 19, 2014
Insomnia-induced decisions
So this morning I had an idea. I couldn't sleep ... woke up at 2:30 a.m. unable to go back to sleep. I need a new mattress. And I did go to bed last night at an hour that could possibly insult the elderly. Regardless, I decided to take advantage of a kid-free morning and ...
... at 5 a.m. I turned on the faucet and started brushing my teeth. From the bedroom I hear boyfran mutter, "Time to get up already?" I am never up at 5 a.m. on a kid-free morning. My first conference call wasn't even until 8:30 a.m.
I started laughing, and I felt giddy and proclaimed, "I'm going to yoga. 5:30 yoga." He responded: "I'm not," which wasn't necessary to say since he's never been ever, and that made me laugh harder, and then he followed with "Fuck that. I'll still be sleeping when you get back at 7:30 a.m. But I guess you gotta go to at least one 5:30 a.m. class in order to realize you never want to do it again." He was kidding, and I was laughing at the insanity ... and the things one will go through to put a silly sticker on a 60-day challenge calendar. As my friend Tulasi says, "I just do it for the stickers."
Boyfran was supportive though and got up, slid into his jeans, and I'm all, "What are you doing? You're getting up?"
He replied, "I gotta move the truck so you can get out of the drive."
... at 5 a.m. I turned on the faucet and started brushing my teeth. From the bedroom I hear boyfran mutter, "Time to get up already?" I am never up at 5 a.m. on a kid-free morning. My first conference call wasn't even until 8:30 a.m.
I started laughing, and I felt giddy and proclaimed, "I'm going to yoga. 5:30 yoga." He responded: "I'm not," which wasn't necessary to say since he's never been ever, and that made me laugh harder, and then he followed with "Fuck that. I'll still be sleeping when you get back at 7:30 a.m. But I guess you gotta go to at least one 5:30 a.m. class in order to realize you never want to do it again." He was kidding, and I was laughing at the insanity ... and the things one will go through to put a silly sticker on a 60-day challenge calendar. As my friend Tulasi says, "I just do it for the stickers."
Boyfran was supportive though and got up, slid into his jeans, and I'm all, "What are you doing? You're getting up?"
He replied, "I gotta move the truck so you can get out of the drive."
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)